It struck me late last night that today is another MEversary for me. It’s exactly 18 months since I rang in sick and didn’t go back to work. I know, it seems a bit odd marking a half year, like a parent who tells you their child is 30 months old, and you wonder how […]

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  I’ve been thinking about suffering quite a bit recently. I seem to be going through a weird phase with my ME where I’m experiencing new and potentially unsettling symptoms such as tremors which move around my body, a limb or muscle at a time. Recently I drove to the end of the farm track […]

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My reasoning Here I explore some of my reasoning for why I’ve come to the conclusion I have. I’ve already expressed that my relationships have had a profound effect on how I see others, not as the Other. My theology and faith have shifted over the years. We either choose to evaluate our beliefs based […]

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This blog post has been a long time coming. I’ve thought long and hard before writing it but I’ve felt compelled to write about one of the most defining and divisive issues within Christendom for some time. It isn’t an easy subject and as such, this post is longer than your average blog. I think […]

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When I was a Christian worship leader I used to love helping to create moments of rest, of calm, of quiet within a worship service. These moments were the times between songs of declaration and proclamation, of dedication and adoration. These moments were times to let the music flow and hope that congregants could just […]

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In 2003 I spent a year studying on an access to social work course at a further education college. It was a year that twisted and shaped my worldview. It was uncomfortable, hard work (I was also working full time) and provocative. The units included equal opportunities legislation and anti-oppressive practice. We were made to […]

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2018 All your wrestling and writhing, all your arrogance and your folly. Apathy on the streets, anger behind our screens. 2018 All your bitterness and broken wires. Miscommunication and empty ears. Peace dispossessed, light turned low and love dispatched. 2018 All your fear pedalled but still stocks last, of course there’s always more. Assurance mishandled. Ignorance for […]

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One of the greatest lessons I’ve learned from being a fostering social worker for 10 years is the essential tool that is co-regulation in parenting. This being the psychological approach which places the caregiver in the privileged and responsible seat of seeking to co-regulate a child’s behaviour, internal worth, and outlook. It’s not manipulation, nor […]

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This week I wrote a song. I’m not one to say whether it’s a good one or not, it doesn’t exist to be critiqued or scrutinised, it’s not for anyone, and certainly not to impress, but I do know it came from my very core. It’s now almost nine months since I became ill with […]

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